My cool fever

I am glad to be a substitution teacher, voluntary. I know commitment is a hard word to spell out.
This is my second time teaching the boys. It is just some simple maths, but three boys, with different level of acceptance. I keep switching myself like a gemini does.

Looking at their eyes, I can see the saturation of their mind.
“Do you want to learn some more/ more exersices for this? ”
and I would never get a NO, until the clock knocked the first hour and knocked them down as well.
They encouraged me to keep encouraging them.

I breath with a little sigh. If they were given a good foundation, good environment as well as good guidance, a little earlier then this, they could have done much better.
I wished I have already done all my best in not more then one and a half hour time, as I know I can’t be committed like my friends do to them. Though they are good student.

I stepped out from their home, a shelter that protects them.

A boy chased out,
“aunty aunty, what’s your name?”

I stunned. I am blocked by the gate from them, but I can still see his eyes blinking.
To say thank you, it is more then a word or action that showing your appreciation.
but,where someone does care to know about your name, and keep you in heart.
I thank you.

the movie

You know, they must be a time.

A time when we meet, we hug, we love, we passed….

A time you seeing me cry,

A time I am looking at your beautiful eyes,

It must be the best time when everything happens.

You know, when time runs, which ever way it goes,

Nothing can actually stop me,

stop me from learning how to love you, how to leave you,

and how to have you in my mind,

no matter how I look like,

where time can’t actually tell.

You said, you hadnt been seeing me laugh like this before.

Not at the meeting table. At least.

I do agree that, i will lock my craziness and wildness that are not supposed to show its true colour. I wanna be a good girl. At least, I tried to be one liked it.

But, it seemed the other way round.

I sang, I danced. But I know at that moment when I looked at the mirror, I was just another me. True me,  that unsealing from the bottom of I heart.

Suddenly, I missed those smile and laughter. That was supposed to be.

smile, as never hurt before

caring, like a blooming lotus

mindful, as beauty as the seed of the lotus.

Beautifully started, my 2009!

When angle asleep, your clock stop at the moment, for all the crying ceased, for all the worries being sweep away.

You are just looking at an angle, without wings perhaps. But, posting happiness to your heart. Beneath the beautiful eyelid, there was love.

When all the movement stops, you just cant move your eyes from him.

beneath the beautiful eyelid

the 15th lunar

No one told me that my finger would be eaten when I pointed to the moon, so, I stare.

You can actually see the moon in a different faces if you really take a look at it. Of corse, you wont see rabbit or pretty lady there, but,when nothing block your visual, it seemed clear.

This 15th of month eight in chinese lunar calender, I stayed at home. Snicking some time out playing lantern with my nephew, togather with three like-kid pretty ladies. Suddenly, I turn up, taking a chance to look at the moon, it shines.

After I return from home, I was busy hanging my clothes in the balcony, for the peace light, I looked up again, and saw the moon, though it was not as round as you draw a circle using a geometrical set, but, it still shines.

I was thinking of you. Do you looking at the same moon that i was looking at?

I bet not, it will never from the same sky or same angle.

But, the moon still shines.

the 17th moon

I dont used to write about politicm as I never wish to spell out anything not beautiful here. But I am totally despair today.

When I got to know that the person did wrong and hurts ppl feeling are so da*n reluctant to say sorry.

When I got to know that ppl who stand out and saying the truth out has been locked for no reason.

I am hopeless, to the so called power holder.

It is darken, our freedom, our pride, our integration, our nation.

"because I love you"

What a nice word to be heard?

(hei…. wake up, dont lost your mind over a dialogue from a super-unrealistic-romance kinda movie that you seldom watch.)

I told Eve, i want to make a day, without internet.

That’s why, we were not bringing our labtop for the vacation.Though, i have unsettle reports and she has unsettle work to do. But, I would never expect phone coverage is equally off too during the vacation. HOwever, we heard crickets and the natural orchestra at night, and also seeing stars at night (oh I missed the stary night)

We had a day for ourselves and our dear friend whom is staying a little outskirt from the city.

I have long never had a mood to grasp my camera with me, shooting from every angle, from up and down, even under the sunlight.

The scenary is simple, made by green and blue. But the sunlight was just making its good sill to match this green and blue. The sun was strong, when Eve was holding the umbrella, my hands are too busy for the camera and holding my jeans in the stream. I care nothing about sunblock and fair skin.

The other day was equally that adventures for me. All my strength was used for tracking the source of the waterfall.

We had a wonderful time there, you can see it from the lens.

A day without internet, but i was so in touch with the natural feel.

A day without internet, but I am happy to look through the beutiness from the lens and my heart.

Last time, I dreamt to be in this white coat. To be a doctor. I was most influenced by movies. Many years after, I am in the while coat, of corse, way much different from being a doctor. But it is the way I choosed.

Just like what Dr.Mei said over the workshop, we stay here as we do have a passion in research. I have the passion, but that is not enough, i need to improve in whatever way.

I know the coming 3 years is not an easy way to strive. Rocks and obstacles are all over the place. I dont expect I could get good result at the first attempt, but I just hope i wont repeat that many of time, as money and time would be washed away.

I love the while coat and I hope I am safe to be in it.